*sigh*

Well, I guess I have a few things to tell you. No dance class today. I made this beutiful bowl today. But it broke. Sad day. And I sat again. Just like 2 hours. She's such a cute little girl.

A friend had lost a great uncle, and got me thinking about greif. I'm kinda a morbid person, so it's something I think about a lot.

How do you lose someone close to you? The way I see it, the easier it is to love them, the harder it is to lose them. Sometimes, if they're in pain, it's almost barable to lose them. What if you were faced with this choice: to see someone you love happy and lose them one day, OR to keep them alive 2 days longer, and though they may be happy, not as happy as they could be? What if this was your best friend, and you'd do anything to watch them live just a few days longer, but you also wanted them to be happy? A lot of people don't want to die in a hospital. I don't. My stepmom had an older brother, but he was hit by a truck when he was only 3. They put him on life support, but when the day came, they had to let him die. What about that? Could you tell a nurse to let a loved one die, if it was the best thing? So many people say of course, but really think about it. Think about how you'd feel. Would you feel guilty? Upset? Or would you just not be able to register the fact that someone so close to you had died, until you were faced with seeing them lowered into the ground (assuming they had a funerel). Or could you bear the veiwing if they were cremated, and could you stand simplily letting the ashes fall to the ground?

well, I think that's enough morbidy (that even a word??) for today. On the bright side: My stepmoms making chicken potato soup!!