I never even got a thank you...

So, when I was at my sitting job on Wensday, Lannie and Tracy asked me if my brothers would be intrested in doing some yardwork for them. I said I'd ask, and I came home to tell Kyller (Robert's not here yet) that I got him a job, if he was intrested, and he'd get 40 bucks for it. Well, tat's a lot of money for him, cause they NEVER DO ANYTHING. They sit there and say, I'm gonna earn all this money cleaning gutters and doing yard work, but they haven't gotten a single job, because they don't advertise themselves. Or anything really!!! Well, when I told Kyller, I'd hoped he'd be all excited because, well, I just got him 40 dollars, for a good job, and he doesn't even care. Like, he said cool. But no one said thanks. Not once. Even when I pointed out that nobody said thanks, my step mom just kept saying, Well, if you weren't such a brat to him, he might say thanks. But I'm not that bad. At least I don't think I am. I mean, the only thing I had done that day was pretend to hit him with my book, cause I asked if he loved me (before I told him about the job) and he said no. So I PRETENDED to hit him with my book, and Rachel (my step mom's) all like, well, it's because your such a brat to him. And, yeah, I do make snarky remarks. But I only do that cause, well, I'm always compeating with him, cause my dad NEVER TALKS TO ME. I don't get into truble, I'm not... Anything. Nothing special, nothing out of the ordanary, ABSOLUTLY NOTHING. So he never has to worry about me, never has to talk to, me, cause I'm the good child. And I'm stuck here for the weekend, with both Kyller and Robert, and grandpa Steve and I JUST WANNA GO BACK TO MOMS!!!!!! And I thought I'd never say that. But I'm sitting here, infront of everyone, crying, and no one even bothers to notice. I just wanna go back to moms. They just don't notice... I feel homesick, but not to go back to moms. But I'm at dads, and there's no where else that's home to me... Like there's some place I need to be, some place that wants me to be there, but I can't, cause I don't even know where it is, or why it wants me there... I know that sounds really, odd... But it really does feel like that. Like I need to be somewhere, that really needs me, but I can't be there... Where is it??

BTW, Lannie told me they found someone else to do the job... But I don't feel better for some reason...